3 weeks until paris

so, i am very excited and very nervous that i leave for paris in less than 3 weeks. i hope X and i actually start talking. maybe, even start planning some fun times. paris is a very special city for me that i have saved visiting until the right time. although my private life was thrown for a loop (in the season of being down with all the grey and rain), i hope i can still have a rewarding and enriching experience.

i will be challenging my safe zones, my vertigo and my ability to travel in lieu of recent illnesses. i hope X can still be that loving help that i was hoping to have (the only reason why i made a great leap of faith with my health and travel).

i love her still very deeply. and i hope that the 17 months together will amount to a solid friendship and future together.

i must keep my heart in that realm of intent.